What the Pandemic had taught me

I think we all agree to call these periods as dark days, where it will be part of the history in the future, that we are part who faced one of the worse outbreak in the history of mankind. Every day the rate is increased and we are incapable of doing miracles unless we’re stopping what we are doing right now. Staying at home. Social distancing. It became the “millenial” outbreak where information spreads vaguely within seconds. It fears creep up vastly for some people, but for some they distract themselves with some entertainment and the outbreak jokes. In this time of events, the situation at my hospital where I worked became chaotic. Not only every of paramedics working paranoid but some giving hate and stigmatise others. It became the hunger game when ultimately you label someone into suspect or positive or unknown, and it became the game of prey. But in other point of view, lots others care for each others. Right now is never about a single person, it’s about community. It’s about what you can bring to the community. No matter how small it is. And I think, this could help, at least to survive for the near future. But if we want to take a pause a second and reflect about what can we learned from all this outbreak? We are asked to stay at home but do we actually think about these damages that actually created by human itself with all these consequences?

Well, for me personally we are demanded to think. To think more than how we protect ourself tomorrow but to think deeper that these are warning from our Creator. It is very easy for God to diminished some of the human creatures in the world, God creates a very tiny microscopic creature and we are panicking already. We are losing in so many ways. But this is not a fight. If we are living in the periods where Prophets were still alive, our story would be called as one of the horrific reminder story that deserved a disaster to sweep up human. We’ve been ungratefully raping our technologies, transportation, human contacts without thinking further.

Alas I would like to point that we human are most definitely not ready for the doomsday, and yet here we are closer to it. What if it we only have some time left? What will we do? Some of us danced, some of us sing, some of us trying to keep productive, some of us trying “to make the most of it” or “making things right”, some of us pray, some of us asked for forgiveness, but mostly, most of us forget. We forget we are created. We are programmed by society to remember that we are allowed to do what we want because we are free, we are allowed to voice what we think because we are free, but here’s the truth- we are not free. Sadly we are not. Instead we are tested. And yes we are positively not ready for the big day. That is when we are labelled, heaven or hellfire. Easy for God. Not easy for us. Because it’s permanent. We are small human being that run from the fate that we are tested by creating our bubble thoughts about our daily problem. But knowing the pandemic began, suddenly our little worries stop. Our survival instinct reacts, are we going to survive this? Yes, we are. Indeed we are optimistic human. But what if this is a little preparation by God to face the big day? We are like in every exam we might ever take, we are never ready. The preparation is the whole life. But sadly we don’t want to think about it because we are not reminded by it daily. Well, here’s the reminder. These dark days. Where we are all hiding under the roof. In the middle of the night where the starry skies look at our earth and laughed, let us think. Are we believing in the right thing? Are your good deeds will be counted to the right prop or wasted unevenly? Or do you even have good deeds afterall? It’s that time where all the movies are nonsense, the music are unimportant, the big names in the history of mankind are no longer special. It’s that time where after all we thought about community, we forgot to save our own little life and regret everything. That time is ticking and we are all on the wrong train.

22 March 2020, lockdown on earth