Have you ever had all these ideas of new routine in your head to be constantly done in reality instead wandering in your mind? But there are like, so many, and you have to choose a few so that you could manage it well, to create it as a habit. And you have to be very specific. I would really like to run, read, study, and write. But that would not happen as a habit if I don’t give a specific time of year. So, for me, i would choose for running every morning in the weekend, one book each week, a study session one hour each day in a weekday at my office after lunch hour in my office desk. IS that too.. ambitious? Sometimes I’m just tired with my ambitious-self, but I think it’s the lazy-part of myself that did not allow this useful habit. Well, to make it less ambitious, I give it a year. Let’s see what happened, let’s see what’s workin’ out and what’s not. So, is there any thoughts of new habits that you want to do, but did not quite there yet? Just say, I give it a year. No worries.
Month: November 2021
Hello from the chilly morning
Hi. it’s me, again.
It’s been a while.
So the reason why I’m starting to write again, is well, because I had a long sleepless night started with a mild vertigo after my traffic-stuck driving with a coffee in the late afternoon , a parade of watching amelia’s chicken shop date- which led me to recognize more footballers than I ever been in my whole life, woke up at 1 am then can’t continue sleeping till like 4am. I woke up with a very cloudy day and that brings the London vibe, so I decided to run, instead of just curling on my bed although it’s a weekend. So why run? I was remembering my last trip to London way before the covid, and I was remembering one day I ran through the park near my hotel and into like a hill – I forget the name of the hill, with my friend from New Zealand that I met in the hostel. We had so much fun- we were healthy and being productive in early days. And with that in mind, I- who were petrified about my next steps in life- was kept thinking, like a loud static headbang during my days, if I were misfortune to live in this neighborhood due to any specific reasons – one of the biggest issue is my medical work license, which led me to work only in my country – and the other specific reasons- the virus, duh- and can’t go to London for any time being, why don’t I make the London- ish myself in here? I was wandering alone in one of shopping centre before I had the long-way driving, and I was like panicking myself because I was alone- and I felt like weird because what happened if I met someone I know and ask me with whom I went and they know I was alone, they would be feeling pity with me, but nothing happened- just like any other million problems that I created in my head, nothing actually happened. So I was had this epiphany, it’s all the same while in London or in the city myself I am currently in, if you don’t enjoy yourself, you won’t enjoy the city as well. So, let’s just say I want to take the effort for applying fellowship in London, or a PhD but my main motive is basically just so I could live in London or any other interesting cities I had in mind, but that’s nonsense if turns out when I arrive at the city then you feel empty and lonely, and other people were busy – or act busy- with anything else, and that led me for being a sad stranger in a big city, although now I still also feel like a sad stranger in a big city as well. So, here I am now, wondering, If I were in London in a saturday morning, what would I do? I would run in the middle of cloudy weather with my black adidas trainers hat I just bought, I would write with an ice coffee in my hand, I would like, yeah, doing things that I like, just so I enjoy myself. And when I’m enjoying myself, people will accustomed to me being enjoying myself as well. I was like holding a lot past few years, you know, I will post about that in other post, but for now, I want to enjoy myself, because the only one that know it best about it- is me.
Little Writing on the Wall 